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August – Under

<a href="http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com/track/waiting-for-ships" onclick="javascript:_gaq.push(['_trackEvent','outbound-article','http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com']);">Waiting For Ships by In The Black Box</a>
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<a href="http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com/track/last-blue-run" onclick="javascript:_gaq.push(['_trackEvent','outbound-article','http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com']);">Last Blue Run by In The Black Box</a>

Because You Got Eyes on Good and Tight
Heavy loads will sometimes come on slowly… didn’t see it rise out of the sunshine i must say… and now at the tail end I’m flat on it, pushing empty onto downhill slopes, hoping for momentum to find the way. Oh but it was a fun ride… and i know that with this drop into the unknown i will rise with the sun and find another mountain to climb in the shade..

Easy peasy they say, but we got eyes to groove on and they are good and tight… reveal that to the senses and let it get fixed up good for the Sunday parade.

You have another wave of ill thinking? another bazillion to spend and make perfect for the future. investment investment investment. If we take away the bass perhaps it will be easier for the lighter stuff to float up their noses… This one is a keeper i think

But just because you got eyes…. on good and tight.

Ill let that one slip towards you and you can deal with it how you like.

Its a simple equator.. long and round… could have been flat. But just because…

… i really will.

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June – Outward

<a href="http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com/track/lullaby" onclick="javascript:_gaq.push(['_trackEvent','outbound-article','http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com']);">Lullaby by In The Black Box</a>

Sit down and…….work it out. Been flipping through the various elements lately, working out which goes with what and how it all works together in the big light. The time has treated them kindly, they never come out the same way twice. And now, shining crazy on sizzling sun stretches the great globe in the sky looms with light extatic. They say we waited for a moment to arrive, the perfect one, yet with all those contraptions you still sound the same as the one before. And we will go on last, last out of the box, and stay on last, last into the box. Rippling vibrations, the ones we planned yet play like stings to the varied and the drunk… the ones that sound too perfect to be momentous, too momentous to be real.

 

And i will lower the cases down a size and convince the temples that nothing really happened between my fingers and the electronics, just another day, just another rip in the fabric. Today we should do it all outside and establish the connections better… establish the links in and between the music. But if you do not agree, and suggest they are but perfect in every way. Who is it? Why is it? When was it? I’m not there anymore.

 

And this will appear and make no difference.. i wait for the liquid shapes to appear on liquid social scenes. I await for reality to become.

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This is a place….

This is a place that i wish i could return to… From a bus window.. there was a light breeze pushing the grass around..and i watched its footprints lead away from the road… along the meadow to where a family were walking… a man and woman, her dress rolling gently in the currents.. the little boy pulls against his fathers grip… enchanted by the expance before him, the unknown.. to be free and follow the wind, let it take him up the hill…towards the sun, flaring round the corners of the ancient ruins… atop this hill…sitting and waiting.. i want to go there again, and let the wind sing me up to its walls… i want to close my eyes and hear the world around it…the moving world…around this eternity… an eternity… somebody’s golden statue… somebody’s eternal echo, forever heard but its origins long forgotten… and i would stand there in the middle, waiting to hear the past.. 

and the bus rolled on.

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Being there,

Not going to lie

Brought on the old memories and wondering where in the first place

Will it not be a good memory?

will it not also be bad?

Driving slow like a hum across a frosty morning.

I remember that same feeling in a moore of south west England

I will miss that

I wanted a photo of that

I want a photo of this

Lets not miss another one

But is it safe?

All these things you had for yourself!

And to think we live in the normal,

the usual

We are so jealous…

That is no surprise

That i should be so lucky

When luck is insignificant

These things are everywhere all the time

depends how you appreciate it

I have never consider the usual as the insignificant

as i have never considered the unusual out of its context

A beautiful photo is always 

and can be anywhere

yet we travel and travel to find something more significant to call worthy of our lenses

and we envy those in the places we seek

yet they envy you and dream of you normality

this does not alarm you?

do we not appreciate enough?

can we not rely on them a little more?

I saw the light bounce of the water

I questioned my hard fought opinions and views

I wondered why i hadn’t seen it from this angle more often

I wondered why i hadn’t embraced this view from the start

I considered the term “waste” and focused in on the glass between us

I considered the possibilities

split second illumination

calculations beyond comprehension

i estimated my worth in this place

I estimated my existence

And the glass dropped out of focus

I saw the moving road flash yellow on black tar

moving water drip colours through layers of dark

moving bridges scrape holes in the paint 

buildings rip bloody into the sky 

it is the same..

though i will miss it

like i miss the sound of water lapping the southern beaches

like i miss hotel room hums in Chicago skyscrapers

like i miss the metropolis dramatics unfold through double glazing

like i miss untouched sand in specks of sunlight

like i miss the smell of wet vegetation

and the list will grow longer

yet a list to be thankful for 

and vibrations will map it out

and keep me in tune

are we not supposed to be unique?

and this will be my seen and done

my experience 

from floor to window-ledge mornings

understanding

and motion towards

separation in the most connected ways

never letting go

balance

maintenance

heat 

and governance

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Where?

Ill tell you where…just not here, yet! Got you hard between the reciever and the truth and I am shining light into the black slips of money and sound.

 

Then there is none…you threw it away with the most important words and the longest silences…dead sound…send that email….take that chance…forget the consequences they say?

 

Another option we jest at corner stones and flags marked evil getting the picture are we? i hope true is that sound on you going and coming having no idea and trying all the same just let the rhythm take over and think not abou tthe options fopr the good and the ready have no forging to get done and realise what indeed you have written and why you are writing it for there is reason in all of this reason to believe and to greet the new and the old and the gooding and bading have we reached another level of this where and why and what who have they? i didnt know that i never know anything before it happens right in front of my face and even tho the funds are low and good vibrations will rattle of empty pockets where the rattling will definitely occur we will still groove with big smiles and seizing the night the skys willl fill once more with dark shining lights…and the box will be full to the brim and ready for action once more

 

yes they are coming…just not here yet

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365 Update: 63 – 84

Sorry for the long delay in updating this, but i have been on holiday… so deal with it.

In no particular order…

 

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April – Blend

<a href="http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com/track/hold" onclick="javascript:_gaq.push(['_trackEvent','outbound-article','http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com']);">Hold by In The Black Box</a>
<a href="http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com/track/drop" onclick="javascript:_gaq.push(['_trackEvent','outbound-article','http://intheblackbox.bandcamp.com']);">Drop by In The Black Box</a>

And in This
Grinding heavy sounds rip through the peace we had endured for so long… dust removed from the eyelids and ears given a fresh lick of paint for the new season…near misses and close encounters, this has got to be done or else the boat will surely be gone.

Get you fucking head out of your arse you ignorant excuse for a man..

….and then there was a release and an understanding… one forgets the happiness you can achieve near an open window on a beautiful day listening to Marvin Gaye whip lyrics of beauty and love round flowing rhythms and pulsing beats.. nothing can ever replace these days.

Muscles hurt.. all of them inside and out, missing the usual knowing i wont have to for long.

And the practice will make it perfect.

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Grand Slam – Grand Slam – Grand Slam !!! (49-365)

There is so much to be happy for and everything went wrong… that is why we deserve it most…

If 18months of critical journalism, disbelief, doom and gloom results in the first grand slam for the Irish Rugby team in 61 years then things are looking better already for the Irish economy.

I think that all those with their heads in the dirt, looking at money like it was the word of the lord.. and sipping at their half empty glasses with hopes of a quick refil need to look at the pure happiness brewed up by 30 odd athletes on a rugby pitch today.

There is nothing to be sad about, there is nothing to worry about… the happiness was already there and there was no need to panic in the first place.

Its not about profit or money…

…tis all about losing your voice in a Paris pub screaming ole ole ole with complete strangers as you realise LIFE IS GOOD – SO LETS GO FUCKING MENTAL!

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29-365 (Mix Day)

some excerpts of my conversations with the computer today

 

["......Well...if i can throw my two cents in... its 3.57am for me... and i havnt managed to bet asleep before at least 2.30am in ooo maybe 7 months [...]but i have gradually come to cherish my time at night…its quiet.. and not just literally but mentally… i mean when you think that the whole world is asleep at the one time (at least in your part of the world) then you realise that there is some sort of extra space in the “collective subconscious” its like you have more space to think….and so at night time i create all my music and do all my writing…when i dont have to get up in the morning i get up about 2pm and go do whatever i have to do… i take photos, i get ideas, i have experiences, then the night comes and i process them… and i create as much as i feel necessary.. thats my space….. my place for expression and thinking..
so i like it… and i dont try to change it too much…. i like the silence and the bizarre that only occurs at night…

but boy do i get fatigued… and i understand that aspect…because as much as you may try to excape for most of the day there are always things that will get you out of bed earlier than you should…and its hard to live both lives….. very hard…..”]

 

 

["..... don't exactly DJ myself but we all have to start somewhere right? Well Sonic Acid 3.0 is what i started on, and i believe Sony have bought it since, and these days i still use Sonic Acid Pro. 4.0 ...
..but like i said i don't DJ, when i started makin music i would sample a lot of stuff, because all i had was a semi-acoustic guitar and a pedal and input into the computer...so finding that beat to work with your own music and realising that your own music was never at a constant beat....well....needless to say a lot of "fixing" went on....

..but these tracks...eventhough today i am quite happily producing music .... these first tracks mean so much to me now... the amount of work and time...and the mistakes... so nostalgic ...ha and it was what... not even that long ago...

but i guess what im trying to say is that while you may push for the more advanced equipment its the stuff that you produce when your still just banging spoons off pots and pans....thats the stuff that you need to remember when your waiting for your shiney new computer to render another 2hour mix you just banged out on your top of the range gear.... remember those days and apply it to your new shiney gear... cus if you put just as much effort in you will come out with something mad...

well thats what i think anyway...."]

 

and so the mix was made

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Nothing Is Broken

Didn’t I believe you once when you had me in a corner on the ropes?

Or did I have you there lost in missing memory?

Wasn’t it on your hand that I left the burning touch?

Or did you scar my own and leave it for me to consider my hopes?

And then the world opened up it’s skies and beckoned people forth… I watched the world gulp and swallow with vibrations from my life. We’re all on the Opposite once more yet nothing is inverted. The key was never too far from electronical option and modern mouths to speak. Nothing is broken and never had to be mended from passed mistakes and wrong reverberations. Nothing is mended on broken hills where green flows up towards the sky… that was hair in wrong places and lessons learned, lessons left forever.

Didn’t I thank with the gifts before me and do what had never been done?

Or did I fumble and drop the ball you saved from oblivion gone?

Wasn’t it with world noises that we pounded out the dents?

“Or” is not an option now.. Nothing is Broken – Vibrations deep and pounding

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19-365 (Multiple Vibration Reports)

The city swallowed me deep today – no energy, no life, my punishment for deep damaging grooves the night before – these forces will grow and this rigid structure will be destroyed. 

Head ached to the noises through my head and foreign tongues fell deaf on ears of disinterest…. yet there was light to behold when the snake spit me out once and for all.

Echoes from the night before ran through my eyes as my mind wondered towards forbidden noises.. yet keys were found the rewards were fantastic!

“The auld Triangle” – Bob Dylan and the Band

…before i knew it the vibrations of times past long forgotten within my local sphere were upon me… and i wondered how a voice so pure could fall on deaf ears for so long… hello Terry Reid.. welcome to my mind

Timetables may fall apart and pieces of sanity clear from all existance, yet in the wind are always echoes of reality and vibrations to keep you going.. one more breath one more step one more everything and before you know it its the next and the next…then its home time

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18-365

Second Toughest rips plastic vibrations through my home.. this is just one of the things that i will miss until the last moment away. Unsure of why but at last positive of how long, i reach again into the clouds to watch golden sunsets above my home. And into the dark abyss once again i dip slowly and surely towards you. The beasts and snakes and movement unstoppable.. forever breathing parties and screaming… this is not my home, this is just temporary, this is not my home, this is just temporary. And now we vibrate o destroy these city streets!

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17-365

Roman walls were hard to topple but toppled they were.. great food from great people and happiness infected the environment. Shadows on well known streets reach out to hold me in but responsibilities are hard to resist and the foreign pulls me once again form the only thing i want.. last night is all to soon upon us.

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11-365 (Storm in a City)

I did’nt know how best to take a photo of a storm. Well it’s not quite a storm yet, high winds and all but a bit of rain or hail wouldn’t be too much to ask for now would it? It’s nights like this that i can nearly feel the other people that are still awake.. everyone is disturbed by the banging and gusts of wind. It’s just not like a normal night. There is always something so strange about a storm, a special event… you feel that it means something sinister, or perhaps to take a Shakespearian approach, you feel that somebody somewhere is coming to a low point – exposed and out in the wind and rain, naked to the elements, their souls are being washed clean by the Gods, all the mayhem and agony within them is unleashed upon the Earth…….. and after…peace, calm, understanding, realisation, happiness returns.

 

I got rained on today, though it was worth it in the end… happy news could mean tougher times for me, more testing on the brain, but definitely better i hope. 

 

More good vibrations from the neighbours.. its so handy its rediculous…talk about landing on your feet.

 

Echoes fall on deaf ears however and my heart tightens.. a little more when those movies that are just right hit the spot and send your mind to another in another place…

 

soon

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10-356

And so the weekend of my year comes to a close.. months ago i gave up early starts for late finishes.. not like it ever mattered anyway, i never had to take up late finishes, they were just in the blood. What was mind destroying however was the mix. The evil mix of early and late, creation and destruction. I enjoyed both, needed both, but could not contain both in one day. My daily life was torn apart and my mind struggled to bridge the gap between the two…shall i consider an alternative… to turn early into late and wake when the sun leaves my world? Is that the answer.

 

If today of all days was anything to go by it really would not matter that much. This Sunday, the Sunday of my long weekend if you will, existed only within the walls of an apartment in Paris. For anybody except for the 5 other people who interacted with me today I barely need to have existed. You can check off the usual, the Internet, the music, the movies, the writing, the food, the water, the smells, the windows, the cold, the toilet, the thoughts, the phone calls, the texts, the news from home, the news from “the crumbling world”…… so much of the badness, the hopelessness of life is gone at night…minds are put to rest… people forget and exist solely within their minds. The only true privacy is behind those eyelids. And for all the economic downturns, the horrific weather, the fatal stabbings, the tragic car crashes… for all that sadness, reality is really just an echo within our minds… where we all truly exist, where we are all truly trying to find meaning and happiness. For it does not matter how the daily goings and comings of emotion and reaction effect us as a result of personal interaction…what matters is our own happiness…with ourselves… and for those brief moments between sunset and sunrise, everyone finds a place to be content. Everyone escapes the sadness… and the “realities” of life are no longer broadcast between mouths and ears, from screens and amplifiers… it simply stops…

 

So as i sit here… i realise there is only a silence, not of lonelyness but of relief… a contented silence… a moments peace, the world relaxes and enjoys its time in the shelter of its collective consciousness…

 

the first noises we hear in the morning are often the worst you will hear all day. A buzzing alarm clock or loud reminders of how we are late is no way to set yourself up for happiness..

 

i for one am happy with my space in time… i may be alone out here in reality… and the quiet streets echo the clicking of my keyboard.. i listen to the slow heart beat of relief and relaxation.

 

Space to think.

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